Tonight, E and I got invited to one of my friend’s birthday party. It was at Katsuya SD.  Since it was my first time to the place, I googled it and look at the pictures to make sure I dress approriately then looked at reviews about their food and research the biggest issue: Can I bring Little M?

I checked Yelp. I even called and just asked Katsuya. They said it was ok! So I brought Little M along. Huge Mistake!

I did enjoy the food but was very guilty the whole time. Little M was fine (thanks to E’s htc evo) and ate rice with miso but I promised myself to not even risk it next time and just find a back up babysitter for evenings like this!

While I was sitting there and observing, I noticed how different my life has been now that I am a parent. Before Little M, I must admit I really enjoy the night light but also didn’t forget that sometimes when you don’t have someone and you come home after being in a club, it can be really lonely.

Of course, I also notice all the club dresses of the girls, very short. The shoes. The hair.  And then I thought, I need to be more serious about dropping my carbs and should start my tread mill run tomorrow instead of after our apartment will be fully organized!

Walking at the streets of San Diego back to our car, I looked around and the city was just so alive. Something I felt I don’t belong anymore.  I did enjoy those days back then but I can say I am definitely happier now that I am settled.

Happy to know that I can go home with someone I trust unlike those days where you come home with an emotional high but also with questions about this other person…wishing, hoping this would be the one, praying this person will not break your heart!

Even so, E and I agreed it was a nice experience and maybe should do it still maybe once a month, realistically probably once in three months!

xoxo M